Friday night before test week...

And I'm sitting on the couch with one of the most amazing friends I've ever made listening to sappy music and looking at wedding dresses. Am I crazy? Maybe, but it's the kind of craziness that keeps me sane these days. Sometimes I just need a moment to step back from the all-consuming black hole that is M2 year and be reminded of what really matters in my life. It's nights like this that remind me of just how lucky I am. I have the most amazing parents a girl good ask for - they raised me to have good manners, a head that's screwed on straight, and what in today's society would probably be unrealistic and idealistic ideas about what love and marriage are supposed to be like. But I'm ok with that. The older I get, the more I start to realize just how much my sister means to me too... Maybe she isn't just the annoying pain in the ass I used to think she was. I have wonderful cousins (of all ages) that I couldn't imagine my life without. In the friend department, I have been blessed more times than I can count. Some of them I've known since birth, some from elementary/high school, and others have just recently come into my life... But they all have a very special place in my heart. It's funny how God can lead us to places or people in our lives that completely reshape our worlds. I have problems remembering to "let go and let God"... Thankfully there are times that He basically slaps me upside the head and forces me to see things His way. Those are usually the moments that lead to my entire world changing... times where somebody walks into my life that changes it so totally and completely that I simply couldn't go back to being the person I was before that moment happened.

Sometimes I think I'm crazy for falling for a Marine. Sometimes I think I'm just asking for trouble for getting into this long-distance thing, especially with med school. Most especially with this deployment business. But then I see him, I hear his voice on the phone, I get a text or an email from him right when I need it the most, and I remember why I'm doing this. I remember why I fell for him in the first place, why I know that he's the one I will spend the rest of my life with. It's because at that moment, I was smart enough to let go and let God... and God gave me him.

med school...fun?

I guess it's time for an update...

Life has felt a little bit like a slow whirlwind. Does that even make sense? It's like time is crawling by, but then I turn around and think "it's already been 3 weeks!?". School is going well, I think. There's been a few freakout-worthy moments, but they pass. And when I go back to look at that material again, I start to wonder why it had me so freaked to begin with. I'm still excited about this year, even when it's scary. That four-letter word that's coming up next summer (STEP 1) is very scary, but I think I will be able to handle it when the time comes.

In other news, I have the best friends in the world. They keep me from going crazy. We had a girls night with my Momma last week, painting at Easely Amused. I'm always amazed at how my paintings turn out from there when I have so little artistic talent. I also have a very busy weekend planned, I'm going to my future nephew's birthday party Saturday, then have tickets for the symphony that night. I'm hoping I'll still go to it, I think it would be fun to have a grown-ups night out.

Now if only I can make it to Christmas...